Sunday, March 25, 2007

Sunday, March 25, 2007
One Step Closer! Current mood: grateful
We are one step closer to having the nursery done! Yesterday, Steve & my dad painted Macy Jane's room and put up the border. It looks so incredibly cute in there!! They did an awesome job on everything and I just want to say a HUGE thank you to them.
I was going to put up pictures of the progress so far, but decided that I would wait until it was completely finished. We are still waiting for the hutch to come in, but other than that all of her furniture is here. Well, I say here, but it is really still at the store until everything comes in. Hopefully we will pick it up next week sometime. I bought some wood letters at Hobby Lobby and these wood flower peg things to hang the letters from. Me and my mom and my aunt painted all of those yesterday. The flowers are dark pink and each letter is either purple, green, or yellow, with coordinating ribbon. It was a lot cheaper to "do it myself".
Also, I am really excited that my friends Micah and Chris are throwing me a baby shower in a few weeks! I have probably blogged about it before, but now we at least have a place to go figured out. It's going to be on April 21st at 4pm at Molly's. It's a restaurant/bar. that Chris goes to every Friday. I have personally never been there, but as long as friends are around, it'll be fun! If anyone would like to come, please feel free to. And, if you want to bring your spouse or significant other, feel free to do that as well! Not fru-fru at all (Chris is a guy......it can't get too girly!) Anyways, I am sooo looking forward to that.
Only about 65 days until Macy Jane could make her appearance! Actually, it is less than that because she will probably be taken at 39 weeks due to her due date being around Memorial Day weekend. 3 more weeks and we find out more from her cardiologist, one and a half weeks until my next ultrasound with the perinatologist. Time has gone by SO fast. I am loving every minute of this pregnancy (minus all of the bad news). I honestly don't feel bad at all. At the end of the day I am so tired that I sleep pretty good and her kicking me doesn't wake me up, thank God! I have been blessed with a very good/comfortable pregnancy. I was in Hobby Lobby the other day and this lady came up to me and was saying how sorry she felt for me and how miserable I must be in the heat etc etc. I politely told her to please not feel sorry for me because I feel great. I don't want a "let's have a pitty party for Bethany because she is pregnant" or feel sorry for me. Save the pity for someone else that really needs it I do realize that some people hate being pregnant and that some people's pregnancy is really difficult on their bodies. I just choose to not focus on the bad parts and it makes my outlook better.
Anyways, I was in the middle of sweeping the floors and mopping and should probably get back to it. I hope everyone is doing well. Continue to keep us in your prayers. April is going to be such a busy month with all of the doctor's appointments & we all know how I feel about those now. God is still in control though and hasn't forgotten us for a minute!!!! Bye-bye now.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Saturday, March 17, 2007
I wish...... Current mood:Wishful
I wish that me and Steve could go to Florida for a few days just to get away. I would love to be able to stay at a place we stayed at when we were dating called the Five Flags Inn on Pensacola Beach. It was this cheap hotel, but it had everything that we needed (bed, shower, and fridge!) and was right on the beach. The kind of place that you stayed at on the spur of the moment without a care in world. Unfortunately it was demolished by a hurricane.
I would love to be able to walk on the beach in the moonlight holding hands with my husband and talking about our future and how far we have come together/what we have been through. We used to do this when we lived down there and I miss it. I would also like to eat at this little greek restaurant and this vietnamese restaurant that were some of our fav places to go.
I know that we cannot do this right now, but I can still wish. When our lives settle down, hopefully in the next 3-6 months, maybe we can get away and relax/unwind. Some of you may be thinking that gosh they JUST went on a cruise in January why need to travel again?! Since then I feel like I have aged 20 years and that that vacation was 20 years ago.
I think my pregnancy third trimester hormones are kicking in. In fact, I know they are. I am usually a pretty independent person, but right now I get really lonely really fast. I miss my husband too!! I hate it when he is working his 6 nights in a row because we don't get to see each other, but like he says....it could be worse! We were separated for a year when he was in school in Florida and I was up here and saw each other once every month or every other month. I am thankful I See him for 5 minutes at least a day. This morning was wonderful because I was here when he got home. I was still in bed, of course, but we were able to just lay there and talk for a while. I fell back asleep with him and didn't wake up until 1pm, but that is what I wanted to do. The last three days at work wore me out and I was exhausted. I couldn't wait to sleep in. He also got up a little early so we could spend time together before he went back to work. I just get emotional more often and act more like a girl Those that know me know that isn't really the normal me!!!! Only about 9 more weeks until Macy Jane's birthday, we will make it. After that, Steve is going to be on dayshift whoo--hoo.
I am also changing my mind on how to do her room. I am thinking that I do not want to put up a chair rail after all. My new idea is to just paint the bottom portion of the wall dark pink and then put the border above that and leave the top portion the neutral color it is right now. Everything is the same, minus the chair rail. I need some opinions/advice on this if anyone wants to share. Her room would be the only bedroom with a chair rail and she may not like it as she gets older. I have a few days to decide since we aren't doing anything to the room until Saturday.
Well, I guess that's about it. I made some chicken and dumplings for supper and am just now getting hungry. At ten o'clock at night.... That's okay, I have to wash the white clothes so I can have some clean shirts for work in the morning. Until nextime......!

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Life Current mood: tired
The past few days have been such an amazing time. Wednesday started it all for me. Just to be able to see our precious little girl up close for the first time made me so happy. God answered our prayers and her sweet little face is perfect! I just love to sit and look at her. I can't imagine what it will be like when she is finally here and I am able to hold her in my arms.
Some people have made little comments about how this doesn't look right or that, but I just want those people to know that she is perfect in God's eyes and He made her just like He wants her and she is beautiful to us no matter what. I would appreciate any mean or hurtful comments to be kept to yourself. I would never say something or point something out that was wrong with your child, most decent people wouldn't--especially in front of you.
My sister and my sister-in-law threw me a baby shower on Saturday. It was SO much fun! My out of town friends came in and most of my female family members also joined us. Macy Jane received many, many, many awesome and MUCH needed presents. If she were born today, she would have everything that she needed. I was shocked at how many people gave blankets/quilts that they personally took the time to make and had her name embroidered on them. We also got her big items like her stroller and car seat....we got 3 car seats to be exact :) That's okay though, we need one for my car, Steve's truck, and my mom's car since she will be watching MJ while I am at work. Everything was trully a blessing. My friends from work are also going to throw me a shower sometime at the end of this month, or the beginning of next. I should get the rest of the little stuff at that one. Like I said, if not.....she has plenty to start with!
Tomorrow it is back to work as usual. Now I just sit and wait for Macy Jane's birthday to arrive. Her furniture should be arriving in 1-2 weeks! Next weekend we are going to put the chair rail up and paint/border etc. Hopefully her room will be finished by April!! I will post pictures when we are finished.
Last but not least. Why do people do things that they know we either a.) don't like or b.) it hurts us. Are they stupid enough to think that we won't eventually find out? I have never understood this and never will. I am not going in to details about what I am talking about but it really upsets me and makes me feel like crap when I do find out. I do eventually get over it, but it bums me out for a few days until I do.
Ohwell, I am going to do some laundry and eat some dinner. Hopefully I can go to bed early tonight. Hope everyone is doing well.

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Nerves! Current mood: anxious
I was a little worried last night about not being able to sleep. Today is the day that I get a sneak peek at Macy Jane!!!! But, thankfully I slept very well, only waking up once to make sure I wasn't over sleeping
I am SO excited, and yet VERY nervous at the same time. I am nervous just because every time I have had an ultrasound, I have received bad news, especially at this doctors office. So, in my mind I kind of associate bad news with this doctor, even though it isn't his fault! Just say a little prayer for me and Steve!!!
My sister just sent me a text message saying that she is in town. YAY! We are going to the doctor, then to my favorite restaurant right now, El Porton. After that, they want to take me to buy a new outfit for the shower.....something bright and cheery Of course I am up for that because shopping is right up my alley. And then......who knows what we will do. Shower planning stuff I guess!
I need to get going. Our appointment is at 9:30 and I have to go to my moms house first to meet up with everyone. Hopefully, we will have good news and I can post some pictures on the internet later! I still have some other ones that I need to put on here. Maybe when she is 5 I will get around to it. Bye Bye Now!!

Monday, March 5, 2007

Monday, March 05, 2007
My Husband!! Current mood: exhausted
I don't know if Steve ever looks at my page or my blog, but just in case he does I wanted to say a big THANK YOU!
Now that I am on days and he is still on nights, he will take my car home in the morning and return at night. This saves us on gas money as his big truck is a gas GUZZLER. Well, tonight I got in the car after work and there was a bouquet of fresh flowers waiting for me!!! How sweet is that??
It's hard not being able to see each other on the days that we are working, but thankfully we tend to work the same 3 days each week so that our days off are together. Still, we see each other for 5 minutes before my shift starts and 5 minutes after his starts. This is only temporary until Macy Jane is born, which is when his boss has decided that he can go to days. (Even though he said it would be before then.....he changes his mind) We aren't really used to being apart this much! We used to ride to work together and have the same exact schedules etc. I guess maybe this is preparing us for what is to come in the future?
Oh-well, just thought I would share that. And oh yeah, before I forget. People have been asking me why I always use the name Macy Jane when I refer to our little one, instead of just Macy. That is because she will be called Macy Jane. We like the two names combined.........kind of like people are called Mary Jane or Mary Margaret. It just kind of fits together
That's it for now. Once again it is almost bedtime! I did not want to get out of the bed this morning and I know that tomorrow will only be worse since it is day 3. Today was such a BUSY day and I am pretty tired.

Sunday, March 4, 2007

Sunday, March 04, 2007
What's New Current mood: tired
I wrote out this nice long blog last week & clicked for it to post. Well, my question today is........WHERE IS IT? Myspace needs to get its act together.
Anyways, I don't remember what my other blogs said, or what my bulletins have said. So, I thought I would give a quick update on the past couple of weeks.
Steve & I were tested for the syndrome that MJ supposedly has and the results came back negative. What that means is that me & Steve are not carriers of it and that what is going on with MJ is just a random "fluke" occurance. We could have more children if we wanted without the risk of passing it on 50% to another child. That was awesome news, as we have always said we wanted to have two children. Either way, we would adopt if we couldn't have any more biologically. Definately an answer to prayer!!
Another awesome thing is that this Wednesday, we are going to have a 4-D ultrasound done.......for FREE!!! (with the exception of a minor co-pay) Typically insurance companies will not pay for this type of ultrasound, but since they are technically using it for diagnostic purposes, it is covered. We will get the same pictures etc without having to spend hundreds of dollars!! YAY. I am really nervous about this appointment because we are actually going to see what our beautiful little girl looks like!!! With that being said, they are going to be looking at everything very closely to see if there are any abnormalities. So far, she doesn't appear to have a cleft lip or palate, but the 4-D will be more accurate about the lip. There is a high risk with the syndrome that she would have one or both of those. We are praying that she doesn't have either, as that is one more surgery that she would not have to have. Ultimately in the end I know that God's will is going to be done no matter what & I just have to keep having faith. Please say a little prayer for us on Wednesday morning about 9:30 as we get the sneak peek at our daughter. (it still sounds wierd saying that....our daughter!)
In other exciting news.......my sister is flying in to town Wednesday morning to go to the ultrasound with me, Steve, and my parents. I must say that I have an awesome family! My sister was supposed to fly in on Friday, but when she found out that she could see Macy Jane, she changed her flight. She was supposed to get to see the ultrasound a few weeks ago, but because of the weather, that one was cancelled and she had to go back to Florida. She has never seen an ultrasound so it will be exciting for her. Steve has been at every appointment I have ever had regarding this pregnancy & I do not know what I would do without him. I was talking to a friend tonight and telling her that if I had married some of the jerks that I had dated in the past, they would have been long gone by now or freaking out about what's going on. Steve has remained calm & optimistic, even when I have not. He's had his share of bad days, but he is my rock and I love him! I thank God that he sent me the perfect husband and father for our child.
My family is throwing me my first baby shower this Saturday!! I am so excited. There are lots of people coming in from out of town that will be staying at our house and my parents...and possible hotels. I am trying to get my house ready for company It is clean, but there are still a few things I want to do before everyone starts arriving. The problem is that I worked today, tomorrow, and Tuesday.......and I don't feel like doing anything when I get off of work. Oh-well....one way or the other it will get done. Some of my friends from work are going to be throwing me a "work shower" at the end of this month sometime, but I don't know the specifics of that one. I think it is supposed to be March 26th.
We ordered MJ's nursery furniture last Wednesday!! It should be in in around 4 weeks. We bought a crib that goes from crib, toddler bed, day bed, and full size bed. MJ can use this stuff forever and she better because it cost an arm and a leg! We also bought the 5-drawer chest-of-drawers, the long dresser w/hutch and the mattress. If any of you are interested in what it looks like the name of the website is memphisbabytime, the company is Bonavita, and the item is the Sheffield collection (In cherry) (I think Sheffield is right) Anyways, I can't wait to get it in so that we can start decorating her room. My plan for her nursery is for Steve to install a chair rail, we put the border that matches her bedding above the chair rail, and paint below the chair rail the dark pink/rose that is in her bedding. I am going to decorate the walls with wooden letters/ribbon, pictures, and things from her bedding collection. I can't wait
I am finally working dayshift. My boss has been excellent towards me and the situation that we are in. I have heard stupid rumors about people being mad at me or the system because I was able to go to dayshift and pick my schedule, but those people can just get over it. I did not ask to be put in this situation and am not taking advantage of it. I was already on the list for dayshift prior to all of this coming about and I don't know what my schedule is like more than a week in advance due to doctors appointments. I shouldn't have to explain myself to people because really it is NONE of their business what I do. What I do is between me and my boss. This is just a polite way for me to tell people to stay out of my business until you have walked a mile in my shoes, which I don't think anyone has done yet.
Speaking of working, it is past my bedtime. 4:30am comes early & I still have to make my lunch. Grrrrrr. Hope everyone is doing ok. We are doing great, just taking it one day at a time and thanking God for all that He has done and is Going to do. Keep praying for us, Please! Good night!!